It’s me again. I don’t know how to feel anymore. I wake up and can’t decide if there is an actual reason to get out of bed or if I should just lay and waste my life away. I can’t see straight. I feel like I’ve gone blind to the state of the world around me. I can’t go anywhere or log onto social media without seeing how much our world is truly falling apart. I was always told growing up that we were the future of the country, that we we were supposed to keep the world running, that we were supposed to fix the cracks, but lately our entire world has been going back in time.
It truly makes you contemplate if staying here is right. Is it worth dealing with the constant pain and endless suffering, watching the world fall apart at the seams? Most teenagers won’t even hit twenty before they see more emotionally scarring things than a healthy person should. I lost more friends in high school than I thought I would, and it sucks. I don’t mean the usual “we aren’t friends anymore” bullshit either. Some killed themselves. Died in a car accidents.
Romantic love is horseshit. You think you’ve found someone genuinely special and either you fuck it up or they pull a fast one and leave you in the dust before you can tell them you care. I can’t tell if social media has doomed relationships for this generation - things like Tinder, the place your heart goes once it turns into a black hole. All anyone cares about at our age is how many people follow them on Instagram or Twitter or the success of their dumbass Tumblr blog.
But our generation has some perks. We know how to start movements, revolutions. We want to exterminate racism and end inequality, so that’s good on us. We know how to handle situations we care about. The problem is if we don’t care, most of us won’t bat an eye. Otherwise, we make our opinions known, probably on social media. If you want me to be completely fair, millennials are bound to be the reason our country goes broke. Just look at Bernie Sanders. He blew up with teenagers because he basically wants to make it easier for us to drop out and live well, but I’m not diving into politics here. No need.
I don’t know what lies in our hearts. Some of us hate ourselves so much we refuse to seek help or even leave the house. I feel anxious and hated half the time. I’m unsure whether to speak up or not. It seems like suicide is getting more and more common. Who knows how long it will be before the next anxiety-ridden teens that write shit like this, or fakes being okay, takes his or her own life from their family and friends. It could be anyone from your best friend to your brother or sister or even me.
- Dakota G.
What is Advocacy?
Advocacy is a more close to home or emotional side of Metal Lifestyle that Dakota works on from time to time.